Struggling With Pain

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Silent unfaithful and miserable truth
Eternal deceit but untouchable rule
The holiest, the meanest, but the most weak in line
Safe in my madness by inner dismay

Revealed to me as I'm conscious again
Awake, vanished dreams, but alone by myself
Slippery life, need to escape, search for light
The smell of disgrace and a note in my hand

Struggling with pain
Regretting old vows
Ascending from hell

Noisy and faithful and honored falsehood
Fleeting confession but only imposed rule
The sinner, the kindness and strongest in line
On danger my peace by its outer reclaim

Smelling old whiskey and blood on my palm
The corpse of an old one just resting in vain
A glimpse of macabre and inhuman harm
The feeling of terror, of screams, of suicide

Struggling with pain
Regretting old vows
Ascending from hell

All that I thought was just weakness and hope!

Weak and damaged by deathly sences
Scars in my brain is what I feel
Lonely souls are torturing me
Pleasures of tortured flesh and bone

Born to suffer, blackened shadow
Doomed confessions covered in blood
Blinded by old ghosts, surrounded by fear
Crypted messages reveal my suicide suicide!

Lost and delirious on my own desires
Vertiginous fall and painful shock
Hate is the result if my surrender
The need of forget all the awful sins

Pain is the meaning of my destiny
Mysterious voices are judging me
Awake and lost in the deepest darkness
Frightened but confident in my own blood


from Ashes, released November 25, 2016
Music: Javier Muriel, Pau Bonet
Lyrics: Oscar S. Gallardo, Víctor Vallespir


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